I have a disgusting story to share.
For my whole life, I’ve been utterly terrified of throwing up. I know, hang in there – I wish this story didn’t have to do with it lol.
It only happened once in my life and I must have been something like 18 years old.
From that moment on, I swore to my life I’d never do it again. It was just a horrible experience.
A few times after that I got sick, and always held it all in. Suppressed it. I was never gonna do it again.
22 years passed.
A few months ago, I got food poisoning. The nausea was indescribable. I could barely sit up. I paced around the house. I sat on the couch. On the floor. Sat on the toilet. Nothing helped.
I knew it wasn’t possible for me to throw up. I erased it from my experience. I suppressed it. It wasn’t an option. I had no clue how to even do it. I fought. I waited. I was so damn sick…
About 45 min have passed, I was getting exhausted. So without many options left, I stopped trying to figure this out with my head, trying to handle it my way. I gave up. I sat on the bathroom floor, leaned toward the cold toilet ceramic and…
I let my body guide me, I listened to it. And the body never ever, ever, forget what to do. The body knows how to live, just how the body knows how to die.
The body knows the secrets of the universe.
The body is deeply rooted into nature, into the divine, into life force. The body, when your mind gets finally out of the way, heals you, cures you, when you rest and relax and give up, the body takes over.
Sometimes I feel the body wants us sick, so we stop.
In that moment, when a mysterious instinct took over me, I knew I touched a deep truth – there, staring at the toilet. The body orchestrates everything that has to do with our stay on this planet. For some reason, I realized the body will also know how to die, when it’s time, if we get to die a natural death. It will know when it’s time to shut down, we don’t do anything. We get out of the way and relax. It’ll be a natural departure.
So yeah, I threw up. And felt a million times better after.
Sofia Venanzetti 
Everything happens for a reason, all circumstances are in sync for our good, whether we realize it.
I remind myself to flow with life each day, which can be a balancing act; sometimes it entails working towards a goal, and other times it means doing nothing. The latter (remaining still) allows the universe to direct me when I don’t know what to do.
I love that! I really feel you on the balancing act. Some days are for doing, others for non doing.
Some days I go into deep contemplation depending on what things come up. This requires me to stop or slow down.
Other times I’m going at full throttle. Then there are times when I just can’t figure this life out (Hahaha 😆).