I’m back to “Instagram jail”.

If you remember this post, I went on a long rant on how I was struggling to deal with social media, how the constant feeling of pressure and distraction was eating my life away. Of course I also mentioned the many pros I experience with it and how this seems to be an eternal struggle, where I go from weeks of feeling inspired, creative and productive, to absolute repulsion. I now am starting to feel the repulsion growing back, so before hitting rock bottom I’m easing my way out a little, AGAIN.

The main struggle I encounter is that social media is a very efficient tool to reach thousands of people from all over the world and like I said in my previous post it helped my business greatly. Just balance with it simply doesn’t seem to exist.

I did really well after that previous post. One night I was in my living room listening to some old school R&B and I just did it then and there: I took a break. I spent 8 DAYS straight (which in Instagram time feels the equivalent of 8 years) away from the app.

It was hard at the beginning, all of a sudden there is so much time in the day, you feel left out (?) but very soon you also feel much more relaxed and able to slow down. After that break, I tracked myself and I was able, for two full months, to go there very little, posting for work and leave, basically. But then, somehow, I went from a little to a lottle. I can’t tell you how that happened, I just relaxed back into checking the app out of boredom, multiple times daily. I know for a fact now that this is just too hard to manage, no matter how hard you try.

So I still don’t know what will happen with me and social media, I’m unable nor willing to take drastic decisions, I just feel the need, again, to regain some control over it. I want to extend my attention span, I want to read more, I want to feel OK when I’m alone, staring at the wall. I want to detox from poor entertainment and just overall the burden of having so many choices at my fingertips on how to numb my spirit. I’m overstimulated and tired, like many others.

I’m cutting off Youtube too (I don’t own a TV so that’s where I get most of my entertainment time, but I find that watching a comedy show or a full movie – older ones even better – is much more relaxing and engaging than keep scrolling for something interesting, watch it for 8 min and move on to something else).

So yeah that’s where I’m at. Tryna survive in this world of overstimulation. There has to be a way…

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