Sometimes you know a concept, but you’ve never seen it written in words. The you read it somewhere and it’s like a feeling that you had, finally translated in a visible and communicable way. And to me this feeling is the title of this post.

There are times in life we wonder WHY. Why is this happening, why this isn’t going as I wished it, planned it, why, why, why. We despair in the limits of our mind, the limits of known reality, unable to let go overthinking, analyzing, to find some reasonable story that the mind could rest with. But the truth is, the more we try, the less plausible conclusions we get to. Our mind spins and spins, to eventually crash.

There are years that hold questions. Questions we seem to have no answers for. We call it failure, we suffer at what didn’t go “right”. This is where I feel the most compassionate toward our human nature. We can only think in small and finite ways, we label and judge. We need quick answers to complex questions. We deal very poorly with not knowing. We are suckers for security. And so we rather jump to conclusions and assumptions that aren’t serving us, rather than stay floating on a “I just don’t know”.

The thing is, life is an eternal continuum. I love the phrase, “You never get it wrong and you never get it done”. You never get it wrong because you do what you can with what you know. At the same time, because nothing is final, it can’t be wrong as you never get it done. There is always something coming next, evolving from your previous state, maybe a necessary “mistake” that leads to something beautiful after, a lesson you needed to learn, a step needed in your growth. Everything is always in motion, everything changes and so do we.

Sometimes I look at an old photo of me as a child and think, “wow that is me and it isn’t, at the same time”. All of me as changed since then, every single cell as well. What hasn’t changed is my essence, my consciousness – or soul, if you wanna call it so. Because that which I am, is eternal.

Context changes. Our mind changes. Nothing stays the same, not even the past, because we can go back and look at things differently. But going with life’s flow is hard to grasp for the mind, because flow requires suspension of thought, immersion in the present, no questions asked. If you want to understand life you need to understand flow.

Flow requires complete trust, acceptance of what is, allowing things to unfold even when they seem to not make sense, allowing space to be, unfilled with fear. Something good will come eventually out of this space (because something else always come, as all is in flow).

The mind wants to think. Actually, the mind is nothing but the action of the thinking brain, as the brain refers only as its body part. To flow with life means to leave some questions unanswered. The years that answer will come.

What are these years? These are the years of wisdom. The years during which you look back and understand. The puzzle has more pieces now and it has meaning. So much suffering in holding on and wanting things in a certain way during the “question years”, so much relief and thankfulness for the changes and growth that enduring pain brought. Nothing is in vain.

One thing that I learned to practice the most is trust. Unshakable trust. I know even in the discomfort, in the uncertainty, I am guided. It takes so much effort to log into that quiet voice within that knows. It’s calm, it’s only accessible when you consciously choose to hear it, and it takes so much effort to do so. Because the conditioning to listen to fear and worry (which are the loudest) is so strong. But I trust more now, I know in due time, all works itself out, answers and solutions come. I learned it in meditation. The answers will come in one form or other and there isn’t any amount of doing or trying to do needed. When it’s time you’ll have your answers, your lessons will be clear, and you’ll be thankful how things went. You’ll see there is a greater design at work, greater than you can possibly think. If you could get out of your own way by trusting in the unknown…You’ll experience more compassion, more love, more happiness.

Let yourself not know. Relax. Sink into the feeling of having access to all possibilities. Be curious and excited, trust something great will reveal itself. Find excitement into the mystery that life is. That’s how I choose to think now. Too many years I led with fear and anxiety. It is of utmost importance I don’t do that, and it’s a daily practice.